Did an old school Good Charlotte song inspire this week’s post? Possibly.
I’ve been singing along to “Festival Song” since I was 9 years old (and way too young to be listening to Good Charlotte), and I didn’t give much thought to the lyrics, “I don’t want your boring life, and I don’t want your 9-5.” It seemed like the typical anti-establishment belief that most pop-punk bands shared in the early 2000’s. I never took it too seriously. Even as a 4th grader, I knew I was supposed to get a good stable “regular” job that would support me. Singing these lyrics at the time meant nothing more than listening to a song I liked.
But now at 25 years old, jamming out on my daily commute home, I stopped to think about what I was singing along to at the top of my lungs. For once, this long-forgotten lyric finally put into words what I’ve been feeling for months. I don’t want a 9-5 job – to be accurate, I don’t want a 9-6 job, which is what my hours have extended to.
For years, I’ve been feeling this itch in the back of my mind. I know there is something more for me out there than the monotonous routine of going to the same place every day, sitting at the same desk, doing the same thing all day long.
I’m sure a lot of people feel this way. The drag of office life is not lost on the majority of workers but it’s more than just feeling drained by traditional work life. I know I have so much more to offer the world than entering numbers in a computer program that I don’t care anything about.
And don’t get me wrong. My job is fairly interesting and could set me up for a stable career, and I’m lucky to have it. But the thought of this being my life forever is absolutely terrifying.
There are moments that my coworkers discuss feeling accomplished at the end of a day, or after a tough project is completed. I can’t relate at all. I feel less stress, for sure, after finishing a task, but I never feel good. When do I feel accomplished? After completing a chapter of my novel, after finishing up a blog post, after furiously typing out the random story that’s been bouncing around in my head for days. That’s the kind of work that fulfills me, that I have a passion for.
So many times, I doubted starting this journey. And so many more, even now, that I reconsider continuing. There are so many reasons to talk myself out of going for it, but there’s one thought that keeps driving me. Deep down, the scheduling and structure of a 9-5 job feels suffocating and like a waste of my potential.
In my heart, I just know there is something bigger our there for me. I don’t need to fall into the traditional, expected career path if it’s not for me. After all, in the wise words of one of my favorite bands, “I control my future.”
Let me know in the comments below if you can relate! Is there something that you feel more fulfilled doing than what you’re currently doing right now?
And also, for your listening pleasure, play the song that inspired this post!